Mii Lifee

MOVED

2009-05-21T20:43:00.001+08:00

hey all change blogg link and blog liaos F3 ~

link me up

http:/ x-crosspathh-x.blogspot.com

Old life style~

2008-11-27T22:20:00.002+08:00

well i guess i can sae darling and i sorta misunderstand eachh other oo wells he didnt let me explain .. i dun intend to either .. mayb its the best way as STRANGER for both of us .. i dun think i'll regret my decision.. all of this seems so fast.. mayb time being i wun blog cre8ed new one.. dun intend to place link up yet. yupp if cant contact me via phone there's other ways to i'll only give to ppl i would trust or give.. yupp yupp.. bb all~

~.~

2008-09-27T22:01:00.003+08:00

sians today so bored at first got schh proj to flim dhen canceled LOL =.= got kinda tired.. just fell asleep in bathroom hahahahas =.= ohh wells hmm.. so longg bo update sia anyways alort happened still some "stuff" really bothered and stayed wif me.. HOGC -.- why till now i still sae?
bakanade simply hearing his name pisses me off seriously .. whats wif the judgement anyways dun really wanna talk abt it =.= its really irritating not i wanna say its just kept remembering lorhh.. dammit .. just great.. just perfect dae ruin again.. i hate the way they do things its just so impossible.. if its a broken friendship they're every cause of it .. seriously.. backstabbing, false witnesses LOL -.- yet they sae church is the best hmm yet i think the best is yet to be found .. i might not know .. yet i wanna express my feelings here..

terror appears joy slips away
fading light darken to grey
many days covered dismay
once in a lifetime a regret to pay

lost is lost and never retrived
yet regreted and suffering all nights i prayed
seeing the pain all reoccuring in vain
standing steadfast throught the strain

sadness and sorrow overwhelms one's life
whats the cause of it? i know i cried..
being a someone watching things tied
yet my path couldnt set it right

its not my remarks that overturn the sky
its not my thoughts that fears to fly
becoming a bird way up so high
hating and rage appeared oh my

i know it say forgives and forget
yet why not everything changed for the best
people are talking and bugging me for facts
In God's path, all i can say all died, the end..

letdown~

2008-09-13T12:37:00.002+08:00

today receive many things alort had recently happened =.= haiishh.. project so jia liat always tio blamed and scolded for not doing anything.. and ohh ya the movie i acted The day sui yue has started.. pls watched .. =) anyways.. back to abt me i received news about my piano grades.. =.= i failed by 7 marks =.= and my mum compare me wif my cousin again.. mayb as usual but i'm tired of being compared liddat if she think my cousin can do better go adopt another child la i'm dead serious i dun need a mum who only care of ur fking reputation yet i've to hide my discontent and anger.. what the F~.. dhen grandmather said i eat eat eat nvr give him eat like zzz everything me me me ! wtf me me me~ i hate the world and i hate my life .. the only person wouldnt really blame me as darling and my friends but whatever i going though weather u adding on or subtracting my pains i dunno.. there's time when i really hated something yet ive to firce a smile =.= haiish.. nbm mayb its my life.. so many prob larhs yet i dun tell ppl cos i prefer to hide my emotions cos i knw always i mood affect you.. or worse not even bothered? hmm i dunno but i choose to carry my own weighted probs and solve it myself.. i dun nid ppl to take pity.. i dun need God too .. where were you when i needed you? GOD.. i felt as if i'm no longer your child .. blamed blamed and more blaming issue i know Jesus was blame to be a blasphem God's name but i ain't Jesus .. its hurting.. Jesus would had felt the same.. its hurting yet he went through.. i can too? but i guess i aint that strong..

went out with? guess who?

2008-08-28T20:57:00.000+08:00

today actually got the movie i acted which is the days LOL chinese de anyways its a gangster flim.. kk dearling and thea went with me bought tickets and it cost a dollar oo wells ended up got in late LOL so didnt managed to watch rawrs dam thea's cab driver LOL.. chilli dear i seriously drive better LOL =P .. kk upload pics =)

=P see how much she've changed? look more mature dhen me siol.. LOL

kisses to my chilli hehe ^^ i love you sister.. friends forever..

eeyer no matter how much "some ppl" drag us appart our this friendship will stay becos.. ure my dear ^^ hehehe someone so dear too XDD

class pics~

2008-08-21T21:32:00.002+08:00

hmm.. today was lesson per normal just that i;m pretty much bother about my piano greade and O lvl eng oral tmr =.= haiish.. after over leiis rawrs~! anyways i didnt knw i had such lame classmate during photo taking.. LOLS look and the pics..

~ hmm seem united? but where am i? i'm not inside LOL take photo also can fall? cmi -.- toopid alan .. hahas~ bully me more laa =P

LOL~ perfume? or shoe? hahaa but i'm still xcluded LOL..

LOL i finally got dragged in anyways can spot me? LOL ` i'm in my cass but i'm always not one of them LOL..

Only huiting included me in? the rest blehh.. forget it lorhs hahaha 3 more month nia i wun miss dhem one bit.. LOL .. sucks~ dhen aft this it was TPS business course dhen darling came pick mi to study oral together =.= ended up movie and tmr shall study again.. seriously stress LOLS but i;m loving him more n more everyday ^^.. my darlingg..

hold on tight~

2008-08-18T23:10:00.002+08:00

earth is mind blowing
time is mind spinning
river never stop flowing
clock will never stop ticking
Light will never bolt flicking

spotted in a lonely world
helpless in a quiet twirl
stuck in a whirlpool that swirls
indeed racing my heart is smurred

confused yet my heart says bleeding
fishes like piranha never stop feeding
prayers that filled never goes pleeding
yet why am i here fleeding?

running into my lala land
back and forth in popular demend
i wonder how and why it pains again
yet my heart will always choose to say

I set my mind on you and it hurts
i placed my heart back in myself
yet it seemed outta place once more
inplanting artificial joy within

sorrow overwhelms my soul completely
yet i just need you to know
my heart been fully given to you
wholy, heartedly and fully all
luke poh my all in all

it does hurt looking back time again
but i never giv up once again
because darling i promise never to let u go
my heart has already known..
its you.. my dear.. my all.. forever
and ever..

MORE..

things that shivers me~

2008-08-15T08:51:00.002+08:00

hmm.. thinking alort past few days.. ya lo suddenly thought back of the FTMS times when everything seems so cozy and united =.= dhen suddenly moved onto singpost i no longer feel that kinda feeling that was once there.. God's presence was so strong back then.. however, i couldntget the memories off my mind.. old one go new ones come.. some cant be trusted and some cant be fine.. hmm.. suddenly his piece of jigsaw is taken away.. something missing in my life.. but i realise it was FTMS that i stayed and missed fact is its the past.. an unchanging past.. yet it remained so strongly as ppl there are genuine and just love and care as a friend.. however.. now leaving churchh no one contacted any of us .. now even if i go back kinda total stranger.. contact for the sake of attendance growth and invitation.. serene and i totally agree to that.. ppl there are just too busy living in their own world yet only cared about youth attendance not really as a friend .. leaving church no one cantacted back LOL.. why is it so? is it cause we'll be bad influence over ure sheeps? well the only i can trust there is Audrey because since i left she still nvr change towards me.. ppl better not break this friendship or i'll break ure bones LOLS.. leaving church is not backslidding infact its because of issue in life unsolve.. thanks audrey dear for still loving me the same going ke siao as always.. previously i left my heart was still intach now seeing being thrown aside and appart.. i know how serene felt.. a total outcast.. its not a genuine friend.. only audrey is LOLS.. 8 yrs together ^^ hehe.. ups and downs quarrel and fight still we got this far.. anyways i seen through it alreadyy LOLS .. no wonder serene felt like a total stranger .. i guess i'm no difference LOLS.. chris once told me.. ppl who left church ownself switch off and harden their hearts.. true.. but u guys didnt even love us as a friend u guys just want the attendance .. plus audrey wouldnt cause ppl to backslide.. u dare say that about her? =.= what rights or authority have u got? blahh blahh.. yet ure the one causing ppl to leave did u ever see how many ppl are gone not because of audrey's blog or whatever its the way how u do things.. last min.. yaa everyone's imperfect .. even a leader is LOLS.. so how to disciple if u ureself liddat? disciple urself la LOL.. Huiting irrtated by xiaohong cos all she every talked about was church to her.. go out also pull her go church =.=.. ever thought of her feelings? fight? yaa right.. more like breaking family unity =.= she said she doesnt wanna quarrel with her mum due to this yet knick at her door 3x LOLS i'm glad she's smart enuff and now not even friends seriously doing all this will only grow hatred towards you.. you never mind.. God? because u nvr gave her a choice in life.. now even elsewhr also she dun wan go.. thanks alort.. LOLS yaa thanks alort.. who to blame lols i dunno -.-.. its my misconception of HOGC ppl i thought genuine and nice.. guess i was wrong.. i miss it yes but so what? u guys treat ppl nice only if their inte new friends or ev.. what about us is it church too big to bother ? LOLS.. Jesus seeks the lost too.. the commandment said honour ure parents.. yet ask huiting do thes is our act a honour and adoration to God or u just wanna interpert it in ure own conceptions? its noe he who calls me God God that will receive but its he who believe in me in a verse it said as long as we believe .. we're saved.. treasures in heaven it just seeing the right time.. HOGC is just no longer a place i call home =.= because its a total stranger.. thanks for giving me that impression LOLS THANKS ALORT..

all i need~

2008-08-14T23:04:00.002+08:00

woo hahaha i was updating pics of luke XDD LOLS hehhe anyways i worshipped God today.. wow really seiously God bless me tmr no schh wheets LOLS thats not the point -.- hahaha but more off faith renewing yet today i cast out my fear.. hungry ghost i scared but seriously after singing several worship songs and reading 1 cor 6 really helps me hohoho ^^ ok during night class i score adverage again hahas but during break i made this for darlingg XDD.. hope u like it hehe ..

All of my days~
days while you was away simply passes with clouds of graymemories that remained intachfeelings that once faded to blackthe exact feeling when u leftmy heart totally tranformed hard yet coldtime that are worthwhile to be keptwaiting for a miracle to unfold.i hope upon ure recovery sooni pray as i now sees the moonawaiting for the dark to clearwith spirit of faith nothing to feartake my heart and make it yoursas long as i live as life endurestowards a common future.in search of a common dream together.i patiently wait for your sight in my lifeas i could simply smile without a knife [dao]rob my heart and giv me ursi dun want another by forcegive me a chance to know you moregive me that honour to knock ur doori simply grow to need u moredarling my forever my all in all ^^

lastly, i end my day in giving praise to the mighty God of heaven and earth LOLS my Father my God my life Saviour Jesus without you i wouldnt have great friends or even this soulmate now ^^ darling watashiwa daisuke ni

Joy Spiritually and physically ^^

2008-08-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

hoho ^^ todae went out with audreyy first LOLS ^^ met at minimart +.+ becos was helping aunty look out for that 3 particular malay guys aunty guess its shop lifters oo wells hahas a theif doesnt reveal its true colour LOLS =.= soon after jocelyn aiai came hehe ^^ .. had load of fun.. suddenly energised up by her.. hmm.. ok bahs.. perhaps i was selfishh ba.. i grew sad because we didnt contact T.T i felt neglected and thinked she forget everything we've been through.. guess i was wrong haha she's also sad about it ba.. cause we were just thinking of what best for each other.. dear.. u did it cos u afraid i might stumble? yet i wanna get closer cos i know i can be there for u like always.. yupp agree on its not easy to gain back what u've lost.. i miss those days seriously.. going to ure house outside was a excuse to see you.. yet after sad i got dissapointed because of stuffs that i thought she didnt bother about yet i know she does.. from disappointment grew to a anger and pain that i thought i no longer meant to her .. from a anger it grew to "hate" cause i felt we no longer needed each other yet.. moment her sms was sent it filled me wif tears as it said "didnt know just a simple outing can make you happy" yes its true its the thing i wanted.. Thank God~! 6 years of ups and downs quarrel and fights yet aiaii i just wanna sae i need you.. everything was a planned excuse for u to share with me weather be it anger or not i know i might be selfish but i just wanna be there for you like always ^^ forever..

We're all really enjoying ourselfs at the toilet.. this was the missing piece in my life.. i thought it was gone .. now i've retrived backk ^^ A hope and a joy.. ^^..

we still couldnt let you sae goodbye~ we love you !

Jocelyn wo de aiai loved by me for wherever you are.. i really do wanna meet up more dear i need you..

Good news dun stop here ^^ thea smsed me heehee no ordinary sms but was a feeling send by God and shared with me ^^ i'm really glad because its just a joy in my spirit that God still goes out to the non-believers ^^ God seeks the lost amen..

whatever it is thank God for everything hehe ^^ i thank God we're friends forever.. yet i also wanna thank God for giving me a gift sent by heaven right now.. my Mr Right too ^^ One Life.. One God.. One heart.. One man.. Luke Poh Wei Wen ^^ recover soon dear? i miss you loads too ^^

Thinking where will go in years ahead?

YES~ Future planned.. my all my man LOLS thank God ^^ our love never ends ~

Yes its you my man LOL the one who open the right door to my heart i let you in ^^ please keep it and dun leave the door is locked and i've thrown away the key ^^ LOLS ure in me Luke Pohh ^^ prayed to see u soon dearie i miss you ^^

videos ~!

2008-08-13T12:44:00.003+08:00

woos today i made videos whole morning wahahaha didnt go schh cos i alr did my NAPFA test blehh i pass all except running as normal =P anyways very funny whole class got warning letter =P i got 3 hoho 1 for every subject nice eh LOLS not nice la but everyone clap like take cert liddat =.= LOLS see this =.= the no. of ppl who got warning letter for skipping lessons =P i'm included too wahahahas..

LOLS~ see la whole class skip together woohoo

hmm my math night class teacher mr. chong but.. i've the rights to call him mr goldfish
see his badhead? look like the orange and white headed goldfish right? LOLS.. but he dun mind wahahaha ^^ pls dun kill us with ure fish language i speak dolphin XD luke speaks whales rawrs LOLS.. blob blob lob.. LOL understand? blo blob lob.. ^^ whee~ here we go again ^^

OO yes today completed video and its for.. Natty thea cynthia serene audrey jocelyn huimin chin choo and shiyun ^^

longg journeyy ~

2008-08-11T21:10:00.002+08:00

sometimes i dunno how long i'll last
at last i know how to grow so fast
facing through pain and hurts along the way
God, God i cry out to you and pray

sunlights fades away with day
night crosses and fade to grey
my colours soon turned away
mourning and sadness overwhelms in dismay

friends might come and go
feelings linger too and fro
i just want to know
how much you flow

flowers and weeds simply grow
wrong season and wrong plow
somethings are meant to be kept as known
loving hatefully.. i know i still do..
in my heart brokened yet unsowed..

Jail locked and unfreed

2008-08-10T10:18:00.000+08:00

i wished i was a bird that can fly
high up in the sky
with no limitations
going through the deep horizens

from the rising of the sun
to the west with much fun
till my wings no longer trilled
or sadness or emptiness filled

being traped in a sofisicated world
unseened yet brokened in this place
darkness overwhelms the empty soul
nothing seems to move yet unfold

sorrow lingers with every might
i've to end my day with a mighty fright
unlocking my wings so it wouldnt be so tight
i long to be free in freedom rights

to be a bird and soar like a eagle
rising up in the east and set in west
i wanna be uncaged and free
God take me by all mean..

detest and hates~

2008-08-08T08:59:00.002+08:00

just read a *EILEEN XU YILING* blogg -.- i'm not gonna mention names here zz ok i put linkk LOLS make her darn famous XDD

http://ahlingluvahbeeforever.blogspot.com/

LOLS see liaos know who rite? posted 24th July i finally able to read what she posted and i'm here to seek vengence.. rawrrs.. simi SY and JAC? LOLS.. blehhs.. humji? dun dare say name i hereby pronounce ur name on high LOLS.. i'm not shallow or a person that hides emotions .. well, i do ^^ but not to u.. hahas.. if i hurt u, ask God to seek judgement upon me =).. "Let your request be made known to God" ephesians.. hmm, kks i simply wanna correct u LOLS.. simi? childishh? u got the rights to place tag on ppl? i place tag on u jia buay dua u happy or not? [hokkien] eng trans" Eat not big" LOLS.. but.. i shant judge cos i've no right against ur soul.. Yet is our judge in heaven ^^.. right of wrong i let Him decide LOLS.. in Hebrews 13.. Judge not or u shall be judge.. amen? anyways weather u read it or not its ur prob.. yeahh~ i'm on shiyun jiejie side not because she's closer in fact its cause whatever she does.. she still included me LOLS.. u zhong se qing you [chinese] eng trans "See guys dun wan friends".. and u even used us as a tool for your own time killing machine.. Go do your quiet time larhhs.. sryy i slow i dunno whats happening till now, but after i know i wun let u get away with insults that against my friends of family.. to me Shi Yun jie is my family since i alreadyy called her jiejie.. u got the rights to insult her? EVEN I DUN.. nobody's perfect go hear hannah montana larhs.. Nobody's perfect, i've gotta work it again and again till i get it right.. blah blah.. yeahh.. are u? am i? go work on ure imperfections before judging others.. only God is perfect.. the perfect image in my mindd LOLS.. so irritating if ure jolly well trouble by ure work dhen what about us? Shi Yun bo work meh? Jacinta bo study mehs? sorry if u think i pinned u down but its a fact.. ure work ure prob.. u cant balance urself go see a counsellor and get it straight.. zz.. we've no time to entertain ur nonsense so pls.. if u think going out with any of us is bored no one asked u to come as we're only given as a tool for war yet in phillipians.. it said friends are angels given by God to guide you closer and pick u up when u fall.. Yet what u know about this word "friends"? we're juse ure tool and we're tired.. we're all human and we'll get tired.. tired of ure exploits and physical self.. if u dun wanna accept us for us dhen get lost.. we dun need you.. all we need is God to heal our hearts.. so u dun make things worse.. getting lost from our lifes is the greatest blessing ^^.. thank you ..

independent~

2008-07-31T23:46:00.002+08:00

i totally lost my directions
in my sense of lost dimention
a round about turning tention
and my heart beating fast with actions

no longer my solo self
just simply too dependent
i wanna rely on God too
i hope u give me a chance as well

trying to be the best
trying to beat the rest
yet under my own test
no time no time for rest

Relying on myself for a machine
thinking i myself run on engines
but i am a human just like anyone
i need rest, care and love from someone

but i wanna learn to stand up
dun stay down and try once more
i might need ure support
i might need ure strength

But i need to rest in God
so i'll end my tiredness
once and for all .. physically..

woohoo~

2008-07-31T15:15:00.002+08:00

yeahh backk home early todae ^^ anyways took the report on tB and whole family cleared~ whoots.. thats like something to reallly cheer i know God has poured His mercy on us ^^ undeserved blessing as its a highly contagious desease =.= i'm glad it was a sunshine after rain hehe.. all this while darling was with me all the way ^^ ty darlingg .. death will not seperate us ^^ hehes .. hmm during this period of time darlingg was the one who never failed to be there physically .. i'm glad friends prayed for me too hehes ^^ anyways life totally brightened up day by day seeing him.. from 19 may without fail i know my life has joy and laughter.. ^^.. i never ever got tired of being with him hehe ^^ physically i might be but its due to no sabbeth TT.. never rest sia -.- so today taking a 1hr rest hehe o.O darling really shocked me with alot things .. i'll post pic why ^^ i'm happy to say LUKE.. iLu.. seriously.. its just God blessing and favour on me ^^.. amen.. good noon ppl i go orh ohr le ^^

illlness to suffer~

2008-07-25T08:44:00.003+08:00

haiish this is just so sudden~ okies shan't sigh anymore ler.. anyone has any idea what tB can do? tuberculosis? hmms. why suddenly post this topic cos got symptoms of this airborne disease i'd fear my nightmare would happen ok this is from wikipedia.. the information is reliable from that web however i'm afraid i really would get it haiishh

Symptoms
When the disease becomes active, 75% of the cases are pulmonary TB. Symptoms include chest pain, coughing up blood, and a productive, prolonged cough for more than three weeks. Systemic symptoms include fever, chills, night sweats, appetite loss, weight loss, pallor, and often a tendency to fatigue very easily

result i've fever just past few days and flu which was complaining as it just didnt go away, cold sweat breaking out and appetite loss as well haishh heng bo cough blood but flu got blood i think rub too much and constant complains of chest pain TT.. not sure but monday i'll know..

Transmission
When people suffering from active pulmonary TB cough, sneeze, speak, or spit, they expel infectious aerosol droplets 0.5 to 5 µm in diameter. A single sneeze, for instance, can release up to 40,000 droplets. Each one of these droplets may transmit the disease, since the infectious dose of tuberculosis is very low and the inhalation of just a single bacterium can cause a new infection.
People with prolonged, frequent, or intense contact are at particularly high risk of becoming infected, with an estimated 22% infection rate. A person with active but untreated tuberculosis can infect 10–15 other people per year. Others at risk include people in areas where TB is common, people who inject drugs using unsanitary needles, residents and employees of high-risk congregate settings, medically under-served and low-income populations, high-risk racial or ethnic minority populations, children exposed to adults in high-risk categories, patients immunocompromised by conditions such as HIV/AIDS, people who take immunosuppressant drugs, and health care workers serving these high-risk clients

Diagnosis
Tuberculosis can be a difficult disease to diagnose, mainly due to the difficulty in culturing this slow-growing organism in the laboratory (4–12 weeks for blood culture). A complete medical evaluation for TB must include a medical history, a chest X-ray, and a physical examination. Tuberculosis radiology is used in the diagnosis of TB. It may also include a tuberculin skin test, a serological test, microbiological smears and cultures. The interpretation of the tuberculin skin test depends upon the person's risk factors for infection and progression to TB disease, such as exposure to other cases of TB or immunosuppression

Progression
Progression from TB infection to TB disease occurs when the TB bacilli overcome the immune system defenses and begin to multiply. In primary TB disease—1–5% of cases—this occurs soon after infection. However, in the majority of cases, a latent infection occurs that has no obvious symptoms. These dormant bacilli can produce tuberculosis in 2–23% of these latent cases, often many years after infection

Treatment
Treatment for TB uses antibiotics to kill the bacteria. The two antibiotics most commonly used are rifampicin and isoniazid. However, instead of the short course of antibiotics typically used to cure other bacterial infections, TB requires much longer periods of treatment (around 6 to 12 months) to entirely eliminate mycobacteria from the body. Latent TB treatment usually uses a single antibiotic, while active TB disease is best treated with combinations of several antibiotics, to reduce the risk of the bacteria developing antibiotic resistance. People with latent infections are treated to prevent them from progressing to active TB disease later in life. However, treatment using Rifampin and Pyrazinamide is not risk-free. The Centers for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC) notified healthcare professionals of revised recommendations against the use of rifampin plus pyrazinamide for treatment of latent tuberculosis infection, due to high rates of hospitalization and death from liver injury associated with the combined use of these drugs.

Prevention
TB prevention and control takes two parallel approaches. In the first, people with TB and their contacts are identified and then treated. Identification of infections often involves testing high-risk groups for TB. In the second approach, children are vaccinated to protect them from TB. Unfortunately, no vaccine is available that provides reliable protection for adults. However, in tropical areas where the levels of other species of mycobacteria are high, exposure to nontuberculous mycobacteria gives some protection against TB

its seriously a miracle i would read all this but i'm really unable to meet anyone right now i guess unless i'm out of the deadly disease.. right now, keep me in prayer that that even if i were to leave this world i hope i wun spread to others.. i pray ppl close to me wun get affected.. i love them.. the person i most fear he'd get it is luke.. darling i knw we're in this together.. but i seriously rather the pain on me dhen seeing u go through all this plus morever u've other things to recover from.. if i'm affect darling go far far away from me but we'll kip in contact via computer or phone? till the day i either recover or die from it.. as long as i know i'm kept in prayer i bet God will help me.. weather if my mission or times up God will decide it.. if mines is not tB dhen i'm safe and could be normal to go out with all my friends again but if darling has it.. i gotta sae first darlingg cannot mia or go into isolation.. life without you = no colour and no joy.. so darling dun leave me liddat i go wherever u are.. i will stand up to this and say "taste the power of God" "taste the power of LOVE" yeahh~ jia you jia you~ can be overcomers of this illness .. meantime friends do keep me in prayers that all i ask ^^ thank you

perhaps its just me~

2008-07-24T11:11:00.002+08:00

mayb i'm plain selfish
but i know i had tried
the thoughts of losing u to another
simply grips my mind

the love we had
no one will do
standing here i finally understood
till death do us part
our love shall never part

standing in awe just me and you
feeling in strange and thoughts
fears of losing that grips our soul
you'll never be replaced

the love we made
can never be erased
i promise i wun let ure go
darling promise u wont go

i need you my dear
so badly i fear
missing a part of parcel in my life
without you by my side

simply just cant stop loving you
simply cant stop missing you
simply cant stop breathing on you
simply cant stop walking with you

our journey might seem long
but we had each other on
darling promise dun leave me?
dalring promise you'll never go~

Words couldnt sae~ how much iLu so~

2008-07-24T10:41:00.002+08:00

was living in a world of loneliness

My journey was a dark long route all alone

Till the day i was used to stand alone

slowly i begin to open my eyes and see
what had God installed for me

You begin to come into my life
just right infront of the light

since the day God place us together

You coloured up and restored my joy

the times we had we grew into a need

a need of each other~

the love of one another..

yes~ our life couldnt be better

The fun and memories we had~

The fear of losing you~

Baby promise you'll never leave my life all ALONE again?

happy birthdae audrey~

2008-07-23T09:00:00.000+08:00

today is darling audrey b'dae whoots haha older 1 year liaos old old audrey hahahaa XDD anyways hope u like the present i gave.. you'll always have my support i love you and look forward to our everlasting friendship ~ ^^ hehe jyjy~

quiet time~

2008-07-20T09:09:00.002+08:00

Emptiness filled my room
without presence of your sight
it isnt by my might
nor am i could be right

horizens far away
sun rises in the day
just last night i start to pray
i miss your presence day by day

i realise i need you God
i realise i cant depend on my strength
just somethings couldnt grow in length
the presence of your absence

grew as much longing
flew and far belonging
for just a place to stay
even if it stops end of may

God you're someone i need
God you're someone i lean
God you're the shelter from my storm
Please guide me when i'm in wrong

direct my path and shine your light
let it shine forth a glimming light so bright
let it sparkle and let it shine
a little power by your might

somethings i sin i know i'm blind
God i'm sorry would you mind?
love cant contain my tears
warth of God carried in fear

Lord, i know you're here
Lord, i know you're so near
thank God for everything in life
Thank God for my dear

God heal his brokeness and sorrow
God dig deep down to burrow
Let him sink deeply in the meadows
And not let me be your shadow

bring me wherever u go
so that one day we might know
a place of rehovot and growth
God bring us to where your presence flows

thoughts that grips stays ~

2008-07-16T23:00:00.002+08:00

hmm, as much prople known ytd almost broked up.. but now everything went alongg fine.. hmm, dun have to know too muchh as i dun wan be a burden to others too.. hmms, just that alort had happened and its between our faults barhhs but darlingg.. i need you

I SERIOUSLY NEED YOU~

I SERIOUSLY MISS YOU~

You're SERIOUSLY WANTEDD~

MADLY IN LOVE~

DEEPLY IN THOUGHTS~

MOMENT WE HAD~

I REALISE I COULDNT LIVE WITHOUT YOU~

I realise how much i needed you
I realise how much i depanded on You
I realise how much i wanted you
I realise how deep i fell for you

A trap set too deep
A journey plan so steep
A mountain so rocky and plain
Yet profound but complicated in pains

The fear of losing you grips my mind
The only one i can turn to and find
I know how much i needed you so
please baby listen to me and dun go

As much as ure imperfect in your eyes
I am not perfect in my own eyes
for my eyes is set and dazzled by you
yet your eyes are puzzled by me

i hope we're a newly couple meant to be
i pray that the times flashes of you and me
You unlock my heart with ur heart of key
and i know from you, by you i am free

darling i pray you wont leave me in black and white
you coloured up my life, please dont turn it black and white
my life has been greater since u came along
in you my heart and soul i know it belong

My heart only forever you'll stay
night fades and awake with day
this feelings is not something to play
but i know its God's plan i pray

walking in the light
shinning so bright
sparkling in the night
you're a jewel in sight

you dunno how much you ment to me
from all of my days i wished to see
the day u came in i know it was ment to be
darling its all about you and me

^^ darling i just wanna sae how much i need you in my life.. the colours you bring that shines as light.. the rainbow u brought after my bucket of tears = rain .. but still we prevail and voercome it everyday.. darling i love you daily and it just grow stronger day by day ^^

dreaming and dreams~

2008-07-14T09:18:00.002+08:00

Living towards growing forth to a dream
moving forward going upfront towards it seem
the route has stones and smooth journey ahead
sometimes we shed a tear and sweat covered blood

holdin towards a common vision
united we stand helding hands
knowing God will make it a mission
to complete and make this stand

The army of God with sheild of faith
A sword of bravery and courage
A plate of protection and knowledge
kick the board of the devils warth

The end of times will soon come in rage
in a charriot of fire within a range
all this happening simply seeming strange
Holding onto God wif a mighty one

Jesus our savior and abba Father
Seek only Him and no one other
I love my darlingg no another
my only and worthable treasure
nothing od this could never ever measure

=) ^^ darlingg dun sae i not good okies XDD

all seems to past~

2008-07-13T15:01:00.002+08:00

everything just seems to past
and its all just happeneing too fast
missing somethings and placing anew
for i know time had simply just flew

a day will pass and a year will come
in time i'll soon know for some
reason is plain yet in this sofisticated world
coming yet awating for my right time to pass

the world is coming to a stop
everything is revolving around
even if things fall appart i stand my ground
In God all things are made for a sound

Noices and music are within a heart
dun u think times past so smart
i feel my heart burning with fear
i'm afraid of losing you dear..

then again i'll say ilu my only one
which heart can compare and only done
i nidda tell u tis my other half
my heart for a isnt a dwarf

my love has sink deep into the sea
with no depth and no measure
how much the sunken treasure
hatred simply begin to flee

i being to look into a new day with you
simply adoring every thing of you
luke pohh wei wen my you
you you and only you

season worthwhile~

2008-07-13T07:27:00.002+08:00

awaiting for summer as winter pass
snow begin to tumble and melt so fast
everything has now been the past
weight of sin abound in mass

all this things simply changes with time
season for a summer authum or fall
trees begin to grew and oh so tall
beginning to bear fruit like lime and all

a start of a new journey and beginning
the feelings of new hurdle transcending
faith and self - believe of all nations gathering
net of all denomination united praying

its the festival worth to praise
lifting hands high and raise
weeks seems to past like days
awaiting for this very right say
stay tunned for FOP 2008~
its simply awaiting and amazing~ XDD

meet up wif jocelyn n darlingg

2008-07-11T07:23:00.002+08:00

kkz on tues i met up wif jocelyn dear XDD took pics and talked alort
Jocelyn dam pretty rite hahaha XDD ya lorhhs =) hehehe

Darlingg also bought me a wallet XDD loves~ and i love it hehehe cos its given by him from him and to me hahahhaas =)

hmm in schh muchh happened barhs now chionging projects haii dammit last semes smt like studio attachment but in schh which totally sux and whole thing is no exam but final yur grade depends on previous grades and skills for studio work rawrss~ how can liddat life is so unfair but.. God is Just amen ^^.. i gonna pia one finishing move into my this half way and do my best everyone in my class is rival.. 3 semes i let them le not its time for me to PIA ar chiong ar.. =)

messed up~

2008-07-08T22:49:00.002+08:00

mixed with confusions of emotions
mixed with whirlpool of exhaustions
dazed and fascinated facts of many
mazed and corrupted with thoughts for penny

never knew the facts means this much
Never tried to know things seems such
vision in a blury mirage of a haze
walking through a thick jungle of maze

things just seems so wrong
closes eye and begin singing song
avioding like it never happened
alone thinking in a indepandant

The narrow way has long path
the broad way has easy math
thinking cracking and how to choose
make this all a decision to loose

deceptions and betrayal~

2008-07-08T06:06:00.002+08:00

sians first dae go schh.. so many probs~! encountered many happenings .. and shall not go into much detail but express it out on poetry..

The world is revolving around
changing its nature yet profound
some people are changing much
let God be the final judge

lying is a part of self-ishness
betrayal is a part of self-blameness
The world is filled with deceptions
backstabbing with many interpretation

simply irritable and unglemerous
simply tolerent and unumerous
Words used pierced through a soul
actions used act within a foul

a part of life in unholiness
a part of life in unGodliness
practising the deceitfulness
Of a devil called Sataness

To kill, steal and destroy rightousness
But in Christ we're sealed in likeness
And in the Light we'll shine of darkness
Evangelist and preachers that covers in brightness

i pray o God that you'll understand
the true meaning and able to withstand
be steadfast, immovable, and strong
and all this value will all not wrong

this can sae a anger within me, i dunno why i will say all this but what i wanna sae is this world there are deceptions like what it saes in the book of Revelation.. yet betrayal also mention in Matthew.. theworld is liddat.. fact is we cant change it cos the world it's where Satan[Lucifier] lies. As God cast him to earth.. everything might simply change with time.. But with God i believe things will turn out alright.. all this simply i been through it so to me going through it is nth wrong nor surprise to me anymore.. words and stones dun kill me, but i will be killed if u take my Bread of life away.. try taking God from me and u shall get what u see within me.. i will fight till the end .. i wun go hiding but i shall take my sword of faith and the sheild of righteouness..

heart's simplicity~

2008-07-07T22:13:00.001+08:00

a simple word yet undefined,
a simple thought yet undenied.
a small whisper just simply glides,
a small touch just simply slides.

Creation and hallucination are imaginary,
feelings and emotions are extrodinary.
Walking in the ways of the high calling,
Route seems tough yet a felt of falling.

A gift from Heaven that sent above,
decended and landed as sweet as love.
sight of joy and happiness restored,
feeling of high and excitement yet installed.

unseemingly words that pierced though darkness,
Spoken in heavenly languages shines forth brightness.
You came from heaven sent down to here,
i seriously thank God for you my dear.

black and white, God shines His light,
black and white, i held on tight.
Untill you came and coloured up my life,
Now i'm so happy to call myself your wife.

A pinch of sugar and everything nice,
A pinch of jealousy feeling of spice.
Taste of bitterness within a heart,
broken down yet swell within a part.

^^Darling YES i do wanna marry you 1314 3344 184^^

days without you~

2008-07-07T06:09:00.002+08:00

Time is revolving and spinning
Absorbing and shinning
as a early sun awake
knowing that all this isnt fake

you're just right here
you're absense is over there
you're scent is found dear
helding into me like heavenly smear

without you my life's incomplete
without you my life's worth nothing
i'm glad God placed u here
i love you sheding million tears

differently how we knew
indirectly how we grew
together we shared and drew
feeling daily seems to flew

darlingg i love you~

great dae~

2008-07-05T23:53:00.002+08:00

todae was just a great dae hehes lame stuff we did anyways.. we went buggis played pool.. pics i uploaded i went wif shiyun, jun xiang, and darlingg x33..

best brothers jiu shi liddat

Shi yun and jun xiangg

waa so very natural

A Genious in the making LOLS~

There it goes XDD >>>>

HAHAHA in le? no wonder so happy XDD

See them play too bored ahh? =)

Jie Jie x Mei Mei = sisters forever~

End of dae we still held onto this =) can u see it?

Kkkz hmms went out whole dae without a single regret hahahas .. well at first did miss certain stuff but figured it out le hahahas like a smoker who held on addiction intociggrates for me its the same cold turkey period.. but i sure can over come XDD.. didnt went to any churches now le.. just pray that i'll hear from God soon barhhs.. i cant be going arndd ba =)

What HOGC ppl done that left a memoryy~

2008-07-04T08:46:00.002+08:00

i just awoked by a dream i dreamt.. things just seems to past so fast within this 3 yrs of knowing HOGC.. whati am today was the guidience that leaders directed me so i could grow and learn.. yet i went blaming some of them for mistakes i did and at times thinking they wasnt there for me, for that i owe my sinceriest appology.. here to say everything that i regret doingg..

wei jie- prays in everything he does, what more he's a great man when HOGC stay over i remembered he cover a blanket over me after serene told me dhen i knw small things liddis leaders care and loves.. when i was having HBP he was the one who advised me and encouraged me to watch myself and he'll help me but i nvr found the time .. wei jie went to find me yet, i didnt bothered to see..

elaine- when i was down she advised me and found the root prob to my situation and motivated me not willing to giv up on me.. always there to ask me to work things out girl.. iloveyou

Roy- he talked to me when chin choo left HOGC i was feeling so very down as she's the one that i spend my all in everything i did as well, roy talked to me and motivate me to keep going on and growing in God and dun fall due to this.. yet i overlooked what he help me with and look up to him as a monster which i feared.. not only that he thought me about financial stuff and didnt gave up on me even still i insulted alort.. sorry roy..and still placed me on choir..

ming rong- in FTMS ming rong thought me followup lesson 1-7 and also thats when i grew in word and got inspired to read the Word of God.. even the church and CG was growing mong still tooked the time to grow me in faith.. yet i grew bitter at time for him discipling me yet comparing myself towards others.. but he was wanting me to grow even more towards Gods' way.. thanks Mong..

Michelle- also lead me in c5 FTMS, nvr gave up on me when i step into church motivating me to PUSH in prayer and encourage me to have the fire of evangelism in the CG.. the words hilda u can wan lo.. motivated me till even now i remembered..

Chi wen- help me overcome certain issues of life and thought me how to love and grow in new levels.. she cared adn even i was xfer to c8 she still ask us out for lunch with wei kiat as that time he was leading us and chi wen always include me wherever i went..

Cynthia- did too much thing that i could ever sae so when left i felt empty and my passion for God died as well cos she was my role model.. she was raised up by wei jie.. thanks wei jie for placing such a great leader in my life.. even though she left but her passion in me stayed.. she went all the way just to ask how am i doing yet finding time to spend wif me.. when during attachment she still asked wei jie how's hilda doing? seriously it not only moved me to tears it also tells myself what a jerk i've been to only realise it when she left.. i would even giv up my life for her to come back and lead lo.. she meant alort even till now.. time doesnt changes this fact..

suk wah- when she took cared of me she really makes sure i am growing in God along with xiao hong inviting me over to her house for reunion dinner.. and i really enjoyed it.. sriously did i would nvr forget that dae.. suk wah thank u darlingg..

xiao hong- powerful girl, inspired me with many things to tell and telling me the imp of praying and seeking God and teaching me new ways and approach.. and inspiring me to pray read and share.. thanks wei jie n hong hong i managed to read whole of john.. =) i did..

Gabriel Lee- gave me 7th followup lesson in FTMS cry room.. and inspired me into people work and asking me to take that challenge and asked God .. yes i did.. ty gab for believing in me to grow..

whever i go i knw HOGC is the only place i could call it my home.. i love this ppl who believed in me the most.. yet i know i could be a disapointment for this discision.. but i can no longer grow ler.. chi wen message that will always made clear to me "you can make a choice, where you wanna go. The broad way, where its easier but probably not even God's way, Or the narrow way, and it much harder , but God's there" 2nd messgae"You dont need faith when u can feel God, you need faith if you cant feel God" this were the mords that motivate me.. i kept it as a spiritual guidience though i could pocciblyforgetb but this very few sentence stayed.. for michelle it was.." i see u growing from the start u came as u5 but u grew alort jyjy keep growing i'm proud of you.." "girl u can do it jy i believe in you".. mong words" zai la, zai la" LOLS.. all this were words that really pressed me to go on.. if u asked me what i were to tell them before anything was really thank for every guidience.. love them a million.. i'm glad i came HOGC to grow.. haiishh yea.. My heart is there.. always be.. i love them loads.. when i sarted off not knowing my first step in God they lift my legs to step on solid ground not spoon feeding me like a small yound child.. In God he's my solid rock.. i steped on to have a strong foundation in Him.. before i could it was how leader helped me too.. iloveyou guys loads .. XDD take care misses..

scent from Heaven~

2008-07-03T11:09:00.002+08:00

As the breeze blows,
The annointing flows.
mountains that grew berries so sweet
valleys that appear steps so steep

freedom runs so wild and free,
No place i would rather be.
Feeling the homeliness and love,
Holy Spirit scent like dove.

A gentle wind
a strong presence
can only bring
God's peace within

In and out of the house i go
Travel and walking too and fro
No place like a home i see
its the only place i yarn to be

time has come to leave this place
to have faith, that comes without a trace
friends in and some out
true one will stay and mount

carried by sweet candy,
along route rough and sandy.
Life isnt about just one way
it has many routes in a day

walking in the power and light,
i knw that we'll be shinning bright
And with God we'll be alright.
Even when its day or night.

The journey may seemed long,
standing steadfast, immovable and strong.
a heart that knows to sings
Heart of worship to the mighty King

we might still fall deep,
but God will lift us up and keep.
loved and cherish His presence most
thats why we left this house that means most

~the poem tell all about how i feel and i hope it also does sae what i mean about HOGC~ heart of God .. my home~ but its time for me to sae goodbyee~

church will always be a part of me~

2008-07-03T10:57:00.003+08:00

hmms, decision made up.. decided to leave HOGC.. hmms rather sudden.. we still love God and everythingg just we arent growing no big deal.. nothingg at all.. its a great place plus spiritual atmosphere but just isnt right for us barhs.. so ppl dun ask anymore kaes? nothingg's wrong wif it :x.. we're not backslidders but just finding the right one to stay planted with less complexity and place we both and grow XDD.. wanna thank ppl for guilding me and teaching me the ways of God and church culture but if luke and i decided to be together i guess the culture somehow affected? no idea.. but still we dun wan cre8 problems .. yeahh~ i still will drop by for a visit at times.. yeahh~ i seriously will miss things there and how God touched me but point is i cant stay at whr i will miss but i've to find a place i can grow.. i miss God's presence and miss His touch so we decided to leave.. if u asked me which church i would still bring my friends too.. HOGC .. cos its the only place i know my dreams vision and build but mayb i'm not fortunate enuff .. hahahas miss yahh loads XDD

Unspoken

2008-06-30T13:20:00.002+08:00

somethings are meant to be said
somethings are meant to be laid
somethings are meant to keep
somethings are meant to sweep

things that is safely kept aside
waiting for things to rot inside
deeper and deeper things held by pride
seeking for just a place to hide

The truth will always made known
And i hope that one day i can call it my own
Unspoken Words might've shown
complications should left just alone

Inside my heart it weaps
for the very reason its wraped
awaiting for the right moment
seeing a sign of untorment

eyes can see, ears could hear
my heart bleeds for the very tear
only held down, shakened by fear
afraid of losing what was meant my dear

closed and lock by pressure and force
something that just isnt the source
finding someone who just had this cause
for the same reason my heart was tossed

Tremble, strucked and pressed down
turning my laughter into a frown
seeing my tears i'd simple drown
feeling so like a foolishh clown

Love makes all things happens
Love makes all misery shakken
Love makes all wonderous moments
Love endures all the way till no endd

I choosed my suffer
I choosed my path
I choosed this pain
lastly i choosed this love~

darling though now i'm hurt of what u said but the very fact i choose this love.. 1 cor.. love endures and suffers longg amen ~.. ure the only one my heart can sae it was meant for u to see..

anger arises~

2008-06-29T08:50:00.002+08:00

waa sians thinking of how bad my classmates simply mistreated mi again.. i dunno how to bear my another 6 more month to see their irritating face what more bringing them to church or revival.. i not wan them to go to hell but thing is i judt canot stand it liaos.. so dun push me anymore.. i dun wan not cannot..

Anger sinks within a heart
ignorance started without a chart
seeing how it used to be
thinking how it hurt to me

simply wishes for a day
sunshine sitting on the bay
but deep within a anger lay
for them only i shall just say

Frustrated to live another day
seeing their faces black n clay
it simply sucks the mood
as i just simply stood

everything once was perfect
till they come along and destroy the fact
I hate everything of my class
just simply wish could get out fast

LOL~ countdown 5 more month out of class no more backstabb.. no more hurts.. no more snatch position as i've seen far more enuff.. ENOUGH~!

great dae~!

2008-06-28T23:21:00.002+08:00

LOL~ todae was a great dae hmms, can sae learn alort but i wun go into much details anyways hahas didnt met up wif serene but instead a small talk wif huimin dear n xue yi LOL yuppz.. last minutee meet up cos so nearby =.= yuppz.. anyways darling and i bought couple ringg LOL.. total spend like 30 bucks and got so broke LOL.. heng we bought after food or we'll hv no moneyy left hahahas.. yuppz anyways its black wif date on it 19Mayo8 LOL.. dear if lose meory see ring can le hahahas XDD loves~ anyways dhen 4 we took bus to somewhr and really learn alort sia LOL .. power.. manyy thanks to aii jiaa XDD hehehe .. yupp end here oo yahh also heard that jocelyn going tomorro which made mi more happy hehehe XDD ~ so much good things todae my heart cannot take it LOL.. blessings~ thank God hehe

simlpicity thoughts~

2008-06-26T10:04:00.003+08:00

simply just thinking
thoughts filled thingling
seem just so vast
without emptiness or viod

just some things without explanation
just simply things arent too extravigant
now its just simply me over here
wishing for me to be there

a seed dead without suppliment
a flower wittered without a compliment
overall its a heart that dwells
and just thinking its just swell

God took it all
casted though as tall
hoping we'd never fall
even everything through it all

its just simply amazing how God turns
even right till the minute that burns
He's always right here with me
yesterdae today or tommorrow forevermore ^^

ytd i was just angry of my result and todae aft some time wif God i know that things that work out bad will turn out good in God's hands hmms.. if God didnt gave up so shouldnt i.. hahahas yupp.. he went all the way i should too give my all to my schh.. yes my schh my responsibility i'm not gonna becos of a result n throw my deatiny in God yet now i'm gonna pray for understanding n wisdom and lean on God strength to work in within me.. seek God face and not His hands for blessing, but by obedience is better .. ^^.. i'm not bothered and discouraged anymore cos God taken it ^^.. decided to express my feelings to God in terms of hymns and poetry .. just simplicity ^^

fked up by results~

2008-06-25T23:52:00.002+08:00

okies i was still rather happy goiong out todae de .. ate jco.. anyways now important.. main thing is when i accessing to my ITE web .. i got fking 1.381 point GPA so fking low larhs ehh last year still scored 1.59+ now its like wth? i totally giving up on my course alreadyy.. kns~! waste wo time.. can go work liaos lorhs.. everything i do also machiam wrong =X first was to get blamed.. second was to be blamed.. thirdly.. i am fking blamed cos my results are fking retarted and bloody pisses me off.. not as if i nvr went to study .. infact i did.. totally just simply forget it.. FORGET IT.. now mood is simply fked up and depressed feel like cursing my bloody teachers they blindd is it? trying make mi angry nia si bo =.= wa liews dun understand what i do to get into this bloody course wif no single friends who're real.. if only jocelyn or audrey or serene or chin choo in my class n they'll knw how i feel =.= haiishh i dun nid pitys i just need help.. zzz God help.. I cant face this alonee~

Our lame convo ahhahahas

2008-06-25T11:13:00.002+08:00

LOL~ Darling drew this LOL i'm his angel he's my devil ahhahahas and he drew it without photoshop u dun wanna see it man LOL..

darlingg wrotee this LOL ~ aiairen Hilda he dun even knw my chinese name hor LOL

i drew this which looks like toilet sign together LOL~

and after that i drew this LOLLOL nice rite..

LOLS i'm glad things just turn out great aft everythingg hehehe ^^ and we knew each other better ba or can sae he understand mi better LOLS~

triggered moments~

2008-06-24T23:12:00.002+08:00

thinggs simply triggered off mind
thinggs simply settle off time
love is beyond reason and explanation
its not about the feeling sensation

simply the memories that couldnt be replace
simply the moments that could not be erased
times we had of much fun and joy
seem to grow in speek like toys

we loved, we cherishhed the loved we had
we know, we grew and remembered we shared
my mind was flooded by deep thoughts
of how we usually use to fought

now its that we're once more here
standing together helding too dear
drifting out demon, casting out fears
its was something worth meant to cheer

hip hip hooray for everlasting love
just moving into a place filled with doves
it moves, it lurks, it shows something new
just how times was spend with all of YOU~

dedicated to my friends =).. ty audrey for todae.. serene too.. and a everlasting frenship =) jocelyn hehehes =)) loves glad everything is settled so on n so forth hehehe.. love n cherishh u guys loads ^^

Open the eyes of my Heart Lord~

2008-06-23T10:53:00.002+08:00

wow saw this video and its so powerful that God created all this =) the view of what was lost but now its found amen =)

hmm. also found this presentation felt kinda peace on the inside amen u guys see it barhs its really a blessing ^^

and also this =)

God's love and mercy upon us =)

It does seems like tine crosses pointed to heaven =)

Everlasting frenship~!

2008-06-22T13:41:00.003+08:00

awaiting for the right season
giving every dumb reason
to see, to love n know you
to read, to learn and guide you

together we walked hand in hand
you and me jocelyn, forever we stand
u might just stumble, u might just fall.
but in the end we'll still be standing as tall

a million of times i tried yet failed
a zillion of memories we walked that trail
side by side, step by step
each and everything we did it isnt a trap

how much i miss u
how much i miss those times
how much i need u dearly
u and mi together again

*(one dae soon i believe for a dream that somedae happen to meet)*

U and ME

went out wif audreyy~

2008-06-20T22:13:00.000+08:00

LOLS went out wif darlingg todae hmms. went dhouby as i also met up wif serene hahahhas =) hmms. nth much larhs audrey got lost, serene also got lost finding bus stop =.= guess i was the only clear one ahahhahas XDD but cannot blame previous church i always go, so siguan liaos if not really good game LOL hahahas yupp.. most funny thing was audrey n mi passed by this shop at plaza sing LOLS audrey arhs saw this board game and pointed out to mi =P

LOL seems wierd rite? LOL whatcha thinking its a bored game leis .. hahhaas this was dam funny larhs.. glad i finally went out wif aud for dinner at? mos burger LOL~ it was fun nice n cool.. i wanna go out wif darling again soon =)

our anniversary outing ^^

2008-06-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

LoL this are the thinggs i bought and made for him =) hand made card. drawn n colour etc. baby elephant LOL cos i'm HisBABY Elephant =.= hahahahas n a bookmark love de LOL~ nice? =))

okok we went out on thurs to celebratee it ^^ hmms went changi airport took a bus there hahhas ^^ did alort of lame stuffs together hehehes.. i caould nvr forget this dae hahahas alort of things happened barhhs LOL plesent also sad but still we're in this together.. like..

ehh escalator fun to play arhs? actually i also play kekeke =P

first time see him smiling so nicely? cos he met mi kakakaka LOL =.= *self complement*

LOLS~ see the notice? and whats darling doing previously arhs? breaking rule =.= cannot everything must be Law by Law if not fine $500 to Hilda Poh hahahhaas =)) proves someone still a child as stated on the notice [please secure your belongings and your child's safety when near the water feature] LOL indeed he's my BIG Babby =)

LOL~ heart shaped face cos we're madly in love hahhaas ^^

He bought this big dog at minitoons when at changi airport LOL~ last min but he still cares =) together gaven mi a hand made card wif a box inside a small keychain and 2 HP pouches =) hahahaa i've got quite a surprise its thoughts that matters and i'm just glad i found him.. =))

hahahhas this were the fun times we had at changi LOL wanna have fun wif us pls contact mi HP or his HP hahahhas ^^ hmms.. ppl always sae i good catch got such a shuai BF? but to announce it here i love him for him.. love him for whatever he is and whatever he will be ^^.. darling i <3. ahhahaa =")">

lastly..
Our moments, memories will last a lifetime love u dear =)

Happy anni~!

2008-06-19T08:32:00.002+08:00

Unfailing love deep within the sea
unfailing love high on the mountain
within the sea dived under n seek a hidden treasure
above the ground on a mountain top discovering hidden places

how much we've been through
how much our route seems tough
tears of pain n joy streamed and flows
bearing fruit and helping to plow

we casted out doubts and fears
he took my every single tear
just like a rare precious pearl
i miss and need u a million

i've thinked deep in thoughts
we started off as strangers
not even pure frienship and it blossom
and not its gonna flowersom

its not finding u to live with,
its finding u i cant live without,
its not finding u to laugh with,
its without u i'll simply cry,
its not how much we know each other,
its how much we needed and cherish each other.
its not about fearing rejections,
its about not being accepted.

LOVE MI FOR MI and together we'll be someone we'll ever be..
darlingg just U n ME XDD

anger and tolerant~!

2008-06-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

zzz.. ok kinda blog this up cos i cant stand it too.. what rights has he got to insult my fren sia =.=.. not even anyone from hoGc could do so horhs.. ur words are like swords piercing into her heart.. she'll get hurt n hatred against u.. u mind her as a fren dhen just move aside n get lost! i knw i dun mind if she scolds mi a million time if i could be thr for her lorhs.. thats what friends are for =)..
can u define ur terms of friendship? God sae love one another not take swords to kill each other wif ur words.. it hurts, it kills, it condemns.. if i would to sae waa u see position dhen do all this betray, hypocrite throw christian face u lyk si bo? dun sae i mai chap horh not my prob~ but dhen she's my fren so its my prob.. when she hurts i hurt, she anger i anger.. the pain u harm her is far deep lorhs.. if u cant lift her up dhen leave it to God mai geykiang dun act hero lorhs.. i knw u tried thank you la horh.. THANK YOU for THROWING her straight off the cliff instead of lifting her up.. just leave it lorhs.. think so dua arhs? giving up? HA~ if God didnt give up on humanity u think they're billions of Believers today? if Jesus didnt giv upu think u got the rights mehs? she call u buddy for a place in her heart n u just dun appreciate also lorhs.. YA i am siding her though we quarrel alort but we dun sae this kinda stuff to hurt each other lorhhs.. Are u even Christ-like? Jesus got condemn the world mehs? go read on John 3:17 larhs -for God didnt send Jesus down to condemn the world- and when those priest capture Jesus n simon peter slice of the enemy's ear Jesus healed him lorhs.. he got condemn peter anot? no lorhs Jesus said Peter was a man after Jesus n Simon just protected Jesus as a rabbi - teacher or master.. =.= got many stories which one u wan? i also not sending u to condemn urself n go into blaming urself God loves u but u owe her an apology whatever it is she had the same intention of Simon cos she just took the knife n protected the friendship =) yeah~

meeting up some friends~!

2008-06-17T10:28:00.002+08:00

hehehes~ kinda happy ytd cos i met up wif April and ching ching oo wells hahahaa =).. i decided to meet them cos i miss them ^^ nothingg wrong ma LOLS~! i licked april ans she was like OMGOMG lols so funny lorhhs anyways met up at causeway point wif darling actually initiate plans was to go east coast for blading wif darlingg howver i injured my veins -.- sians lo.. so on msn i just asked april whr she going and wanna meet for dinner as i missed her yeahh~ glad we meet up hahaha.. anyways it was fun larhhs now preparing go out wif another darlingg hahhaa ^^ audrey bwahahhaas ><" dhen later 7 plus she got CG oo wells dhen i go find my luke LOL april nick name is lickies due to the lick and i cant believe she went toilet without washing hands OMG~ heng no tummy aches LOL dunno for serious or ching ching joking nia? LOL dun wish to knw hahahaha =.= i'm lickkies and luke shall be lukkies hahahas together add up = luckies LOL

Dear Jesus~

2008-06-16T09:00:00.002+08:00

woke up early morning received pretty bad news last night i msgg deny chi ><" whoaas i didnt knw it hurt him so muchh when i confronted him.. its like he sae he';sd terribly diasappointed in me.. and he injured his leg.. haiishh.. i dunno what else to do but pray =) so i pray ..

Dear God, i come this morning to dwell in ur morning presence that you'll heal deny chi in Jesus name.. i pray that you'll pour forth divine help and in faith deny shall see and he shall know that its by ur might and ur strength to heal. Amen. pour on ur spiritual touch from Heaven i thank u God for friends that stood up for mi and i pray she'll be fine too amen.

God sees ur pain
God knows when it rains
feeling so spiritually drain
keeping our faith to strain

we might just stumble
we may simply tumble
God picks every tear
He casts out every fear

placing ppl so dear
which i can say so near
ilove them a blessing
i love them a million

my friends my dear my all ^^ ILU

Father's Day~

2008-06-15T08:37:00.002+08:00

wheees~ HAPPY FATHERS DAY to everyone hahhahaa =)

happie daddy daes Jesus.. =) hehes.. anyways todae i've decided to just live life haha gonna spend time wif family =).. since its daddy's dae.. LOL.. i've been going out wif Luke too much n i guess he just lack trust in me. i seriously dunno why.. last night was really sad but i also dun wanna bther anymore i dun choose to quarrel i choose to back off alreadyy.. tired of it .. ended up both will be sad and cry right? LOLS~ we went churchh and Sam did many lame stuffs like sitting inbetween us staring at us and alort more other stuffs hahaha~ kinda obvious though as for other ppl i guess it was a misunderstanding .. i kept thinking if its my fault actually both also got wrong de lorhs cos he also assume and never asked same as mi and that was the main prob why we quarrel.. i dun really wanna express it on blog as i think it would hurt i guess however i really hv no one to turn to alreadyy.. feel kinda sad too but o wells guess its how things goes.. i nid his trust.. actually i can sae i just nid God trust he dun trust mi i dun care but aft all he's my BF my responsibilities.. so todae i'm just gonna ignore cos i dun wan giv in le as much as i would gladly do so.. i cant.. cos my heart already hardened totally numbless le i tried to cry last time and nothing just came out.. NOTHING lols no tsunami.. hahaha kk end here~!

thinggs just seems to get better~

2008-06-11T10:46:00.002+08:00

wheeees =).. hahas ytd had night class 7-10 and darlingg pei-ed me.. LOLOLOL.. so loving siahh XDD.. luke is loving LOL.. he not only waited for mi outside my class but also pei-ed mi alongg i so love him loads felt that my feeling for him totally went higher and larger each day.. i dunno what i'll do without him =P i probally go insane oh wells.. guess he cant do without me too XDD.. its the same hahas.. anyways life seems more meaningful ler.. now preparing on the way to BMT.. i'm just afraid i'm not allowed to serve God in any areas liao.. hmm, i seriously lost for directions oh God pray that you'll guide mi alongg hehes .. last session of BMT ler ya and i officially survived~! whoots hahas.. thanks audrey for going through BMT throughout =) loves yahh hahas XDD

A clear decision~!

2008-06-10T00:31:00.002+08:00

even time might seem to grow
our love just pounder too and fro
losing a day without your sight
isnt plesent and filled with fright

tears of pain
fell like rain
casted upon a bleeding heart
blacklisted on a blank chart

though we stumble
times the trumble
but one thing i gotta say
and somethings gotta pray

i cant bear to even think of it
the day of seperation meant like this
i cried myself to slepp if only u'd see
the much u meant to me as i just
simply simply nid love and cherishes euu!~

Unseemless hurts~!

2008-06-07T09:02:00.002+08:00

awaking with tears
trembling wif fear
afriad of losing someone so dear

i simply misses u
i simply need u
the time we spend
was simply a trend

playing swing
hugs and clings
i nid u one more again

i hope this memorie will stay
just like in my heart i pray
a memory so clear it wouldnt sway

just wanna sae u mean alot
just wanna sae u mean my all
even though ure so far in spirit ure here
n i knw ure near

jocelynn i simply wanna sae whatever it is i'm glad we're friends
i simply wanna sae thank God for u in my life the memory we shared
i simply also wanna sae thanks audreyy for helping in everything
u guys mean my everythingg too <33. treasured loved and my all
friends friends do mean my all my everything and my destinyy

FRIENDS FOREVER~!

backk to blogging~!

2008-06-06T10:46:00.003+08:00

LOLS~.. yeahh exams are finally overr.. OVER.. haha.. Tues was last paper and wed went for BMT not basic military training hurh its Basic Ministry Training wow it was very cool larhhs espiecially pst Lia leading worshipp woo.. =) anointing so strong de anyways i'm glad things worked out on audreyy sidee LOL this friendship does matter to mi as well =) glad all is well n fine.. Ignoring made things worse i guess i'm glad we both decided to continue the friendship but i do hop that wun quarrel liddat cos of "someone" *erherms* name not to be notified haha ^^ i see him i sure wackk the daylight out of him == made mi lose a friend oo wells, anyways.. Looking forward to East coast wif Natty darlingg but couldnt make it rawrrs darlingg change to weekdaes easier for u ma? =) haha yuppz.. i gof Bf but i still nid friends.. haha if not i very lonely wan leiis TT.. in eccelesiates 2 it saes the power of friendship amen =) haha yupp.. hmms. night class torture lorhh espiecially tues ><" hate this "fluffy" this malay guyy lols rawrs i shan't be racist but really lorhh always disturb mi der.. TT.. always sae things like my laopo all that i tell him i'm taken he sae oo liddat ar i take u lorhh .. zz take two like zz wt.. dot dot dot etc etc etc rawrs~! he sure will be posted in my blog and he dun sue mi for infrindment LOL~!

heavenly touchh~!

2008-06-02T23:17:00.002+08:00

A feel of tremendous power,
standing above all tower.
just one touch from heaven,
a dream purposed driven.

A mighty light shinnning,
No darker clouds nor lightning.
taken over by fighting
fight the devil being daring

to dream
to live
to serve
a life of deep abundance
and deep significance

ILU Jesus<33..

"GIFT"

2008-06-01T13:53:00.001+08:00

The Smell of your hair
The taste of your kiss
These are the things
That I will always miss

The sound of your voice
The feel of your hand
They affect me in ways
You could never understand

The love in your heart
The peace in your eyes
They make me feel
Like I want to cry

You are a gift
That God gave to me
And I can just feel
That we are meant to be

I'll love you forever
I hope you do too
For it's only a short while
Before we say "I do"

"simply FRIENDS"

2008-05-31T23:32:00.002+08:00

One Stone is Enough
to Break a Glass.
One Sentence is Enough
to Break a Heart.
One Second is Enough
to Fall in Love
One Misunderstanding is Sufficient
to break a Friendship.

Friendship is the Rainbow Between two Hearts.

and i hope to sae we're still friends
a star has 5 ends
a square has 4
a triangle has 3
a line has 2
our life has one end

but whatever it is our friendship means no end..

"IF"

2008-05-28T23:04:00.002+08:00

if i am sad
will u see my tears,

if i am scared
will u hide my fears.

if i am lost
will i be found,

if i dont talk
will u make a sound.

if i am confused
will u guide mi through

darlingg i really want the feeling like b4..

will u love mi?

2008-05-26T11:39:00.002+08:00

if i reach for your hands,
will you HOLD it?

if i stretch out my arms,
will you HUG me?

if i go for ur lips,
will you KISS me?

if i capture ur heart,
will you LOVE me?

if i let u go,
will u LEAVE me?

if i decided to leave one dae,
will u STOP me?

if u knw that i am hurt,
will u COMFORT me?

if one dae i no longer exist
will u MISS me?

if one dae i gonee missing
will u REPLACE me?

But for all i know, NOW i nid u, ure my colour my everythingg n i dun wanna lose u to anythingg cos i simplyy simplyy love love love love love you <33 darlingg..

When i said i NEED u
when i said i WANT u
when i said i LOVE u
i really mean it becos i simply CHERISHH you

Bestyy <33!~

2008-05-17T11:15:00.002+08:00

I wished you'd see
what best friends we'd be
you've conforted me,
believed in me
Knowing ure always thr for me
without failing to motivate me

never seeking to hurt me
you mean whatever more to me
my heart will know you or me
like how u wanna be there for me
i hoped i can do the same
but it just isnt this way

bestyy i really need you
please dun think of leaving me
as long as God lives in me
i thank God for you within me
infinity thanks zillion wows
i just nid u with me now

always always u'll stay somewhr
someplace within my place,
my heart you'll forever stays,
and for you i can finally say
thanks besty for everything iloveyou~

VIDEOS!~

2008-05-16T11:40:00.007+08:00

LOLS~! babby u got it haha amzing grace how sweet the sound

LoL~! amennnn!~ u rocks LoL XDD

magnificent~!

2008-05-16T07:30:00.002+08:00

bestyy whichh bestyy on highh earthh will go do so muchh ><" i so gandong leiis i dunno what i did to hv suchh a great bestyy who understands loves and care =) u did everything u couldd and wouldd to surprisee mi bestyy iloveyou LoL ~! i see daes when i complain maths so hard u bought assesment book == really shocked same time happy.. lukee pohh bestyy i really speechless ure always here wif mi ALWAYS not one of my any prob u dunno.. besty i'm glad i knw urs too XDD i wanna be thr for u always just like ure always thr for mi XP thinking of bestyy now haiishh break record le our frenshipp bondd =.= besty besty !~ u can make mi laughh n cry LoL .. my bestyy XDD iloveyou~ still got many things u did and i'm very thankful to hv u by my sidee no matter what happens.. like what i always sae ppl think what i dun care le, as long we knw in each other we're besty for lifee.. besty besty 1314.. =D

love bestyy !~

2008-05-15T08:07:00.002+08:00

Bestyy i wanna thank God for u =D without u i think i've fall so deep le..

ur spiritual hands that picked mi up when i'm down..
your spiritual embrace when i felt out without a sound..

bestyy arhh besty i dunno what'll do if i losed u ><" seriously thank you for everything that you've done, though we always suan eachh other but we still treasuree each other =) whatever happens bestyy i wann b ur first to be thr for u too <33

even rain or shine
we'll still be fine

=DD bestyy <33 iloveyou, always are my besty, always do .. x33

STRESSED up !~

2008-05-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

wa wa wa wa~~! proj 3 at one go == so crappy dhen not enuff == test next week sia == ok not enuff 3rd week exams blehh ~! how to restt i stress over O lvl os i cant seem to get anything right TT so sad sia classmate in night class always disiao mi de fun is fun but sometime too muchh like todae throw chocolate at mi dhen kip asking mi for no. dhen the stupiid fluffy rarr i not pikachu~! lols anyways i fell todae ouchh hurts lols i not blurball blehhs dun call mi ball i dun wanna roll =X ugly enuff ler lols

dwelling in my past~!

2008-05-12T11:00:00.000+08:00

haiishh i kept thinking.. friends are here for a purposee .. why some just nidda go i felt a lost chemistryy between u and mi.. eachh time i try to be stronger each time i try.. i just fall so deeply that no one could see.. showing out happiness externally is it even mi? of am i living in my fantasyy pretend i was only happy? a huge stone placed in my heart .. this burden no one could carry..

i miss the times we had ..
i miss the fun we shared
missing how we once cared
approachhing u like i dun even dare

haiish sometimes i went pasir ris park playing swing myself talking to myself wishhing u was thr .. by doing so its the only thing that i can sae how much i miss u.. i wan u backk.. faking i dun wanna see u .. pains torture suffers.. enduring longg but my heart ios forever wif u.. always and forever.. even how muchh ppl i knownn . i would've choose to be wif u ..

someone so dear
Yet isnt so near
Drifted from far
wishing i was hit by a car

so this hurt simply pause
hoping everything was once false
but its the truth i nid you
if only u knew i still wanna be wif u

TT.. i didnt knw frenship could hurt so muchh untill i knw how muchh it mean to mi.. i kept thinking i'm bloody useless.. where she kept thinking she's a burden.. but the only burden i once now feel like losing the closeness we once had .. it hurts i cant seek God abt it.. i simply dunno how.. i hope jocelyn see this one dae knwing i still misses the daes we once had.. would u come back? TT

BLESSED!~

2008-05-11T13:47:00.002+08:00

hahahas felt so bless wif friends by my siide XDD~! i love dhem.. special credit to bestyy but most of all i Thank God for blessing mi wif great n wonderous friends =) hahaas i very scared wil draw apart soa =X dun think too muchh hilda hilda hilda rawrr lols i thinking too much i scared to lose dhem ><" lols bestyy cannot go will sad de lols haiishh waaa wonder whats service todae~! anyways i must pray for a clear mind , understanding, wisdom and power for exams =.=.. pray for bestyy to studyy hardd first XDD <33 exams coming dun play liaos horhh hahas u 2 more weeks i 3 more weeks jyjy to everybirddie taking exams God bless x33

LOLS~! mother's dae

2008-05-10T23:35:00.005+08:00

hmm here are some picc of what i get my mum XDD
1) A wallet which cost $22.90 [given on fridae]

2) thinking not enuff $10.00 famour amos cookie =.= [given satur] with relightable candle -.-

All this cannot sae how muchh i love my mum wakakaka ~! decided to be cheekyy lol~! we want a brother XDD haha jkjk n mummy was like shhs~ choi at first she was so slow to react she ask mi how many -.- LOL i nearly replied football team but her shhs was fater dhen what i wanna sae lols see i inherit my slowness n blurness from parents LOL XDD..

hmm.. bestty more nicee gave a balloon XDD

bestyy i caught u smiling hahas even when ure paying it lols~! what a loving son~! hahaa XDD
this picc so natural sia haha got smile somemore hehee looking cool ~!

LoL~.. walked throughout ws to find the bestt mother's dae giftt.. heng i went Bugis LoL.. = ) hahahhaas anyways 8.30 till 10.00 .. thinking of what to buy like termos-flaskk =.- and reflectiive mirror lols~ waa LoL this is the most funny thing i ever did =.= we went throughout ws to see other reflactive mirror and ask dhem to sell us cos we're so desperatee haha~ omigoshh i went most of the shops trying to act cutee see they'll sell us hahahas.. so nort myself =X hahas its like was asking pls pls pls qiu qiu ni menn ba -.- *yucks**pukes* so big de si shen haha XDD Lukee so cutee no nid act cos he's a bear bear XDD i lollipop cannort act cute later ppl pukes hahahas ><"~ luckily not reflective ruler hahaha jkjk~! anyways i had fun actually my mood was quite dull.. moody.. isolation =.= but lukee same n brighten my dae wif jokes and being his lame self lols~! bestyy thank yous for brightening up my life when u came alongg~!!~ <33.

<33 my mummy
<33 my bestyy lols~
<33 everyone ^^

to My bestiie~

2008-05-09T23:28:00.000+08:00

just realise smt so so sweet ~ hmm..

when i was down ure dere
when i was left out ure here
nvr fail to includee me
encouraged mi from troubles n pain

i thank God for this friend
I thank God for His hand
a angel in disguise my true fren
this isnt a one time trend

but this frenship last forever
forever till no end
Logest road seeing too vast
too deep and dark

but wif my besty n fren
spiritually together hand in hand
climbing mountains, crawling valleys
ure still always the best..

thank you for times u was there for mi
likewise i hope i could be thr for you
my dear friend that will always be no end
probs come n go only they'll stay forever and goldd

=)) for my besttie in the world world a lollipop dedication to a bear lols~!

Great friends by my siide~!

2008-05-09T11:47:00.000+08:00

hmm.. wow hahaa felt muchh better after crying out ytd =) many many thks to someone who listen to mi bragg abt it for 2 long hrs feeling sad n kab0omy ><" haiishh ok i'll listen to u hahaas <33 yupps

#1) Go to schh
#2)*shouts tchr got bad tummy achhe i wan go toilet =)*
#3) go jocelyn class find her
#4) ask her when's the next time we can meet

SETTLE~ lols but i scared what if i fail? what if i cant get this frenship back? i knw i'm selfishh to want this backk but i wan u to see my heart towards this .. i love you and always will and always do .. my "what if" is alort why one thing i knw faith saes why not anti- faith saes why God.. hmm..

If i fail with trying at least i knw i did my best and hav 50% chances to pass this
if i fail without trying it means 0% of chances..
pia one time and see how it goes i'll giv my full shot ^^ for frenship n love sakee =)

ppl who are studying NOW! exams in 2 more weeks hello!~ ok study hard now play later.. stay at home out next time go out forever lols.. there's a time for everything =) ^^
A winner never quits, a quiter never wins.. so lets all gambatte n study pia our mid-yr =))
aft mids woo~ free birdd can fly le dhen chiong assignments lols.. jyjy =) to someone that i really hope to see the person score and try his bestt =)

Do ure best
beat the rest
Let God be the test ^^

gambatte~!

I wann u backk dearly~!

2008-05-08T22:47:00.001+08:00

haiishh aft had a bathe started to think again.. TT.. visited jocelyn's blog feeling all emo .. i tagged her .. i change my blig linkk dun bother linking mi since ure so busy tc .. haiish it really pain mi for doing so .. but any idea what happened to us.. i hurt deeply the wounds are just too profound zzz.. mayb u felt ure my burden.. i felt i wasnt able to carry ur burden .. bothh situations ended up self-blaming zz i kept thinking.. we're like so close.. yet now i dunno how to face u.. i dunno what ure thinking anymore.. i dunno i really dun.. i try to set my eyes on everything but i cant eachh time i knw ure missed yet i think i' m not.. this postt i dunno how to sae but this hurt is worse than any hurt far more i can see .. eachh time i took my step of faith to find u.. ure mum will scold mi for being a curse on u.. 3x liaos.. i felt i wasnt a good enuff friend so i decided to.. end this once and for all.. stop everything u wan think i wan back everthing of mine dhen go ahead i visit u, u sae its cos u owe mi moneyy thats what u think? knw how muchh pain it hurt mi when u sae money just take from my mum from the wallet instead of asking mi to visit u? HOW MUCH PAIN IT IS? i dun wan it anymore if it pays my life to turn back when it was mi n u i would .. when it was only mi n u nothing else matters.. but once gone its gone .. my friends are here wif mi but deep down why do i still feel sad? sorrow and crying within ? i dunno.. mayb our bond was too strong to bid goodbyee.. it hurts and it really do O GOD TAKE MY PAIN AWAY!!~

i love my friends!~

2008-05-08T00:15:00.000+08:00

my love for my friends,
through deepest things
nothing could've imagine
greater thick or thin

sometimes we stumble
sometimes we fall
but we pickk one and other together
thats so cool once and for all XDD

i love them, my friends
more then any real sense
they are what i dream
who i dream and how i dream

we do quarrel, we do cry
but our love nvr runs dry
every single prob every single tear
i knw my friends wiped away my fear

we draw closer, we grow deeper
loving and craving for the friendship
an everlasting friend that last in heaven
i love u guys n i knw u guy love mi too

>33 my friends dedicated to all my friends
~Audreyy mama ~Lukee besty ~chin choo ~Natty ~theaa ~huiting

SIANING

2008-05-07T09:46:00.000+08:00

~boohoohoo now going mid yr liaos 1st june start paper test >< waa so sad lo.. its liek shit can.. now projects really jia liatt .. busy busy busy!~ study study studie!~ DIE DIE DIE lols .. 10 ppl in a major group for PPP sure die de haha but same time i guess its fun i knw sure got slackers in group this time i'll prove u guys i'm not the one i'm capable and hilda will be ur worse nightmare hahahhaa XDD lols!~ i dun wan remain mrs nice nice to ppl haha later backstab again rite? lols classmates rar.. rite huiting? lols being nice let ppl bully nia horhh .. kns!~ i rather in class dun even bother abt others unless they really come running to mi.. cant blame i got a soft heart haha.. what i learn from church is to God a open and transparent heart , to ppl a heart of love, and to myself a heart if steel that nth and nth will take the existence of God in my life hahaha.. true heatr of others in church is better dhen in schh cos i find they make use of ppl which is quite scary de lorhs .. eeeeeeeee blehs .. anyways even how muchh i studied n all i just wanna sae i am not neglecting my frens .. espiecially my closer darlings all of my darling muarcks..

Audrey mama << since she alwaes call mi her babbye i shall call her mama

A- abnormal
U- unique
D- darling
R- radical
E- enthusiasm
Y- yourself
hahahas darling ur name horhh

Lukee is my bestiie << everytime i sad he'll be first to knw de n be thr

L- Loving
U- unique
K- kind
E- extrodinary
he's the bestt fren u can ever hv horhh no bullying him okies bully him = bully mi my best bro

S - smart
H - hot
I - intelligent
Y - youthful
U - understandable
N - nice
my best darling jiejie in the world haha nvr fail to be the to ask mi out always ask mi out out out

C- cutee
H - happy
I - integrity
N - nice
C - caring
H - holy
O - oni- sama(sister)
O - one and only
hahahas chin choo feeling hournoured? hahaha

T - thoughtful
H - helpful
E - enthusiastic
A - adorable
hahaha chilli darling XDD

N - noticable
A - appreciated
T - thoughful
A - adorable
L - loving
I - important
A - antique
hahahas one of her in thuis world n muchh appreciated by mi

and lastly what my name stand for XDD
H- huge
I- intolerable
L- Loser
D- doofist
A- abormination
lols hahahhaas thats mii but luke turn it around
H- happy
I - intelligent
L- loving
D- (opps i forgot) hahah
A- adorable
but combine da .. always da chinese = wack, eng= beat, singlishh = piack, gibberish = kabiishh.

hahahhaas L should be lame , d should be different and A of cos is adorable hahahas XDD loves lukee bestie haha nice defination sia XDD

anew

2008-05-05T10:25:00.001+08:00

new blog new start